After leaving Beijing and returning home, I found that slow life is not so easy

　　I was awakened by lightning and thunder again last night. Looking at the thunder that can turn the night into daylight outside the window, I silently sighed which fellow daoist who likes to stay up late was going through the catastrophe? I woke up in the morning and found that the temperature at home continued to rise. After several heavy rains, even in a northern city with an oceanic climate, I immediately noticed the heat on my face. It will be the summer solstice soon, and even if I return to my hometown from Beijing to recuperate, more than half a year has passed.

　　Speaking of it, I didn't think I had returned to my hometown when I left Beijing. Irregular work and rest for a long time, day and night upside down and eating takeaway every day, suffering from gastrointestinal problems is simply a matter of time. After five years of staying in Beijing, my body, which I kept warning about, was finally overwhelmed and fell apart in an instant. I couldn't ignore the pain and torture that forced me to leave my job and go home to recuperate, and I started the enviable slow life of my friends.

　　However, the so-called idyllic and leisurely life that I was looking forward to did not make my health better, but it went from bad to worse. The days of doing nothing make me more and more anxious, and I, who is used to being filled with work, suddenly cannot find my value. Especially when I saw that everyone in the circle of friends had their own business and lived well, I even missed the countless nights that I used to fight for the completion of the project.

　　The self-domestication of "taking myself as a never-ending working machine" is undoubtedly successful for me.

　　On the other hand, my mother, who is about to retire, really enjoys a slow life. As early as the early spring when I wandered at home like a wandering face, I was eager to try to replant the balcony that had been decayed for a winter with flowers and plants. She finally started to buy flower seedling seeds, flower pots, fertilizer, soil, etc. , Going home from get off work every day is happy and busy on the balcony.

　　At first, I took a look because of curiosity, and she introduced me to the flowers and plants of the seeds buried in the soil, as if they were biological. I have nothing to do and observe for a day or two, because there is still no change in the situation, and I quickly lose patience.

　　I admit that I hate everything that is ineffective in a short period of time, but one of my colleagues is more impatient than me. I remember every day when he went downstairs to have lunch, because the elevator was always overcrowded during peak hours, he never waited and pressed the row button frantically, hoping that the elevator would come soon. Finally, the elevator came, and found that it was full inside, and immediately pressed the button outside the moment the door was just closed, causing the elevator door to keep closing. The people inside cannot get off, and the people outside will never wait for the next elevator.

　　When the waiting process is only a few minutes, I will still open the mocking mode and silently complain about my colleagues, but in fact, I am not much better. I still want to violate the laws of nature and immediately see the seeds breaking through the soil.

　　Perhaps in the fast-paced life of modern people, they have become unaccustomed to experiencing the process, but want to get results immediately. Convenience stores, fast food, and processed foods bring convenience and make us no longer have to wait. I don't even know or care about how food comes from, how seeds grow into food, and it's an old saying that no matter how hard you work, no matter how much you harvest.

　　However, time only exerts its greatest magic in nature.

　　When the weather became warmer and the sunshine time became longer and longer, I was required to go to the balcony to bask in the sun for half an hour every day. The balcony has changed from the decadence of two months ago. When I saw the vibrant flowers and plants in large and small flowerpots, the eyes were green and the flowers that I could not name, I was almost captured by this vigorous vitality. .

　　While admiring the spring scenery in the garden, I found that the "vines" wrapped around the railings were green and yellow. When I took a closer look, I was surprised to find that the plant did not grow new leaves, but the original yellow leaves turned green again from the roots. ! Master Mother explained that this is a windmill jasmine. The leaves that have not fallen in winter will turn green again in spring, and small white flowers will soon bloom.

　　Looking at those half-green and half-yellow leaves, I was completely impressed by nature, the creator. It will always heal people's hearts at unexpected times. At this moment, like Colin, the little cousin of the heroine Mary in the movie "The Secret Garden", I burst into tears over the spring in the garden that I have never seen before.

　　Colin, the cousin in the movie, is a sick young master. Because of his poor health, he is locked up in a dark room with no view of the sky all year round. According to the common sense of modern medicine, we know that not being in the sun has a great negative effect on people's body and mind. Fortunately, Mary accidentally discovered a garden that had been abandoned for several years and planted countless seeds to take care of it carefully.

　　The garden not only resurrected, but also gave Colinsheng hope. Caressing the delicate flowers, smelling the scent of green grass and earth, playing with the deer, watching the dove, Colin's pale complexion turns ruddy day by day, until one day he becomes so weak that he can only sit in a wheelchair. He stood up on his own legs and gained vitality under the nourishment of nature and sunlight.

　　It turns out that human beings are so eager to connect with nature, and this connection has been missing for too long. When we shut ourselves in high-rise buildings and enjoy the smart life that can be achieved with the touch of a finger on the mobile phone screen, we are completely isolated from nature like Colin.

　　The reason why "All Living Things" became a popular drama at the end of last year is not because it portrays British country life in the 20th century, but because it allows us to see how people live in harmony with nature and animals. What could be more healed than looking at a poetic landscape that can be painted in every frame, where a loving veterinarian helps the spiritual animals?

　　In fact, anxiety cannot be alleviated by slow life alone. It just provides a possible environment for people with multiple options, rather than just rushing forward regardless. To be healed is not to do nothing, but to really care about nature and understand how life, including human beings, changes and grows under the mechanism of time.

　　From this, I began to truly feel that I was living in this world, and I experienced that I was closely related to everything. Nature has spring, summer, autumn and winter, so is life.

　　The growth of plants is not just a moment of breaking the soil and sprouts, and life cannot always be kept at the best moment. Rest when tired or sick, eat and sleep when hungry, I have to respect the way the body works, just like the growth laws of other animals and plants.

　　Remember to recite the "Book of Songs·July" that reads: "In June, you will eat depression and azulene; in July, you will eat glutinous rice and glutinous rice; in July, you will peel off dates and harvest in October. Melon, broken pot in August, Shuju in September..." When I was a child, I didn't understand the meaning of it. I just thought that eating grapes in June, cooking beans and melons in July, and red dates and picking gourds in August. What is there to write about? Only now I realized that the circulation of life is so precious.

　　In the past, I like to say that I have to be reluctant and feel domineering and confident, but now I feel that going with the flow seems to be a good choice.

　　Suddenly I remembered countless nights when I came home from overtime work, when the lights of thousands of houses were all out, and there was only a lone moon hanging high. I often stand under the apartment and look up at the moon quietly. Sometimes it is a crescent moon, sometimes it is a full moon, and many times it is just covered by clouds, showing a little brilliance to illuminate my home. road. It turned out that I was also in a busy and crowded city, so close to the universe and nature.

　　I finally understood that the point of a slow life is not slowness, but life. When you are truly willing to perceive the universe, the world, and realize that everything is alive, whether in the city or in the countryside, you will be healed and you will get a steady stream of vitality.